^COh ^EmO-oh O^D-o-oh ^GI havent figured out a decent word ^FTo take the lead of the phrase to describe this thought ^GIt's a word with a "dis-" like a thick disorder ^FA disease, disappointment, disaster, distraught ^CDisruptive and draining, ^DThe paint on the walls of my brain is all fl^Fakey and peeling away ^CFoundation is shaking ^DThrough smiles that im faking ^FIm achingly trying to get through each day ^GThese struggles are backed by the^C fact that compassion is^D lacking ^GLike the true definition of re^Cal understanding falls^F flat ^CTheres a sky up above but I^G see it all shaking and cr^Dacking ^Gthrough the cracks I see no answer ^D I dont know wh^Emere im ^Gat

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You're probably wondering, "uh why?

N.C.

Why would you wanna kill yourself?"

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Uh that's a great question

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It's like I hear this relentless buzzing, and it just gets louder, and louder and LOUBER

^GAs it start to build, you cant look down ^FStanding off, clench your jaw, you lost sight of normal ^GTry to stay somewhere safe like your childhood memories ^FToo bad you cant escape the mental^G thunders^Ftorm ^GThe days on repeat, Every w^Deek with a shrink Face-to-f^Gace with a doctor whose i^Fnterest depleted ^GSessions complete with the ^Dsame stupid question ^GAll therapists ask with^Fout skipping a beat With^G zero finesse, Every s^Dhrink has expressed Their e^Fndorsement of pills that make life less d^Gepressing ^GAddressing my stresses And pr^Dessures Subjectively s^Geems like what doctors might^D do when theyre g^Fuessing ^EmSeventeen years and e^Cmotions are scattered and ^Draging ^EmNumbing the pain with the p^Cill Till stabilitys f^Glat But nu^Fmbing the pain is just du^Cmbing me down, nothings c^Dhanging Im staring bl^Gankly at the w^Dalls I dont know wh^Emere im ^Gat

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And you think!

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Getting older will make ALL of this easier.

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It doesnt.

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Getting older just means more responsibilities.

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And more responsibilities, less help.

Fr^Dustrations turn into a d^Emim-lit light On in the mi^Cddle of a room at night Cant see the little bit of g^Glow, ^BNo W^Emrong or right, no one seems to bother asking I^Cf we might need a little middle-of-a-^Groad How could you k^Dnow? I guess you had to be t^Chere I gu^Dess you had to be t^Chere And that's just wh^Emere im ^Gat Always sc^Fared of my po^Ctential Never get^F how im essen^Ctial Yeah thats wh^Emere im ^Gat Where you^Fre force-fed what they^C hand you Where you^Fr friends dont underst^Cand you W^Emrong or right, no one seems to bo^Gther asking I^Cf we might n^Deed a little middle-of-th^Ge-road How could you k^Dnow Just wh^Emere im ^Gat Where your fr^Fiends dont care abo^Cut you Where theyre ^Fbetter off without ^Cyou Look at wh^Emere im ^Gat Where your m^Fom and dad dont g^Cet you Try to li^Fve but then for^Cget to ^COh ^EmO-oh O^D-o-oh ^COh ^EmO-oh O^D-o-oh ^CCan you blame me? ^EmI know this cant be right ^DI stomach down and no wonder I lost my appetite ^CThey try to save me ^EmNo one keeps me up at night

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They think they know whats best for me

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But they dont know

W^Emhere im ^Gat!

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To sum up, im 17 years old.

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I dont know anything about most things but here's what i do know.

(W^Emhere im ^Gat!)

N.C.

Im a literal piece of wallpaper!

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A cog in a wheel in a machine thats irrelevant.

(W^Emhere im ^Gat!)

N.C.

I have enough anxiety to fill a crater in the moon. And im running out of options.

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Or maybe, ive already run out.

^EmBurnt-down light, up in the attic So youre ^Cup all night Put out the little bit of g^Glow ^BSo ^EmThats just life, thrown in the middle of a ^CLosing fight, Stuck but theyre forcing us to g^Grow ^DSo ^EmDim-lit light ^COn in the middle of a room at night Cant see the little bit of g^Glow ^BSo ^EmNo wrong or right ^CNo one seems to bother asking if we might Need a little middle-of-the-r^Goad How could you kn^Dow? I guess you had to be th^Cere

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Hi! Im Craig Gilner

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I always look like im about to cry

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So I move the muscles on my face to make me smile!

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And that's my life!

Yeah, this is w^Emhere im ^Gat! Any questions? ^G